Posting from a different piece of land...

Okaaay... I'm happy to be here... and knowing that I'll cry when me, myself read this in the future... in Malaysia... so, just a happiiiiiieeeee,message, to the future me... oh... don't cry... they'll visit... time will go as fast as it should be...like how 2007 is.... soon, I'll be entering form 2... oh... okay...mr.Arasu... T-T and guess what?? I'll be arriving late for the new education year...(or whatever u say..) JUST ONE DAY... not one week like std.4.... that's because my realative passed away in a tragic way... don't wanna say about it.... family secret... clue~ her death were reported in the news on media cuz the police thought it was murder.... (cough..) NO WAY... IT"S NOT... It's a simple heart attack.... ^-^ relax~~~~~ Okay.. I wanna browse something else...and broke the password to my msn.... T-T yes... I forgot...

9 more days... Mum's friend, Aunty Emi offered to take us to the airport...?!

Wow... less then ten days... I'm going back!! But.. two months will be.. like soooo...fast. And then, I will be crying again... when the new year begins... sobs... Now, I'll be smilling... and sooo fun... excited.. I just couldn't wait for the day... hah... and... yeah... mum's friend is taking us to the airport...OMG...oh, yeah... tomorrow will be my final day of school... I'll collect my report card.. and then... say "c ya next year" to my friends...

'Good-bye Cruel World' is the only solution...

How to get all the plagues off my life...?? DIE... DEATH... HELL.... DEATH.... DIE.... Yeah... suicide.. something fast and unfelt... that's how i get all teh fuckers off my life...

Miserable... tired... gloomy...I DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING!!

there's no lesson anyway... why can't i just stay and sleep...??! and play games..Of course... while waiting for the 3rd of November... I know.. now I'll be happy... and then sad... when it's time to go back here and study.. I'm feeling miserable... tired... drowsy....whatever... i can't look at the skool anymore!!! so... only 3 days... mum's busy anyway... and I must help my mom pack up... etc. etc. i'll try finish the kh project by wednesday... then i'll sleep... and pack up... yes.

Great... I've got no time now, I've got to be on a sacred heart diet...

I'll be meeting my family on the 3rd of November... and today is already the 20th of October... I shouldn't play the pc too much and swim less.... ugh. This sacred heart diet is usually for people who is going for surgery and needs to lose weight, quickly, it promised a 7 day eating plan which will reduce 10-17lbs.(22.0 kg - 37.4kg) I'm on it... which means... no school food. I doubt this is going to work out... but I'm desperate, and I'm willing to try this... It's not that I will lose anything trying this... ;)

Maybe last post... LAzy Meee~

Finally.. we can go back to indonesia... like usual... see my doggies... for two days, then take a train to semarang, my mom's hometown... it's gonna take 4hrs+ by train... that's the fastest way from my hometown to my mom's hometown.. there's no flight. Man... that's longer than the trip from KL to Surabaya...!!! But nevermind... as long as I get to go home... and see the cute pooches... I don't feel like coming to school at all... Even though many of them says I missed lot of fun... I don't think playing at school is cool... Your friends are there... but, the freedom is not. I've to star backpacking by...?? Monday.. on the 29th... or maybe... Thursday.. the 1st.. I can't join the drawing competition held by my group... I'm too lazy anyway... I enough sketches and mangas at home... So, as soon as I did everything I'm supposed to do at school... I'll stay at home.. Yes.. .I don't care about the fun... It's more fun at home anyway... ((wink))

I just don't dare... I don't want to... I'm enough burden to them.

I'm a troublesome kid... Always giving problem to my family... I feel I don't deserve to live... So... any untreated sickness will lead to death, right? So, I'll do that.. I'll pretend I'm okay all the way... That's it.. I'm sorry. Just for a damn ticket I feel heavy... I want to go to my homeland... but my mum wants to go to hers... But, I don't dare to say.