I just don't dare... I don't want to... I'm enough burden to them.

I'm a troublesome kid... Always giving problem to my family... I feel I don't deserve to live... So... any untreated sickness will lead to death, right? So, I'll do that.. I'll pretend I'm okay all the way... That's it.. I'm sorry. Just for a damn ticket I feel heavy... I want to go to my homeland... but my mum wants to go to hers... But, I don't dare to say.